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The Fallout

Posted: August 12, 2014 in Uncategorized

I normally try and make these updates via phone, but at present that is not an option. I have been having major issues with cell phones lately (them malfunctioning randomly), which has needless to say contributed to the difficult situation I find myself in now.

The business had been going well, but I made a fatal mistake. I mixed too much friendship with business. I gave my talent/friends too much rope, and yes they hung me with it. They knew I would not get too ugly (as my business also lacked “teeth” to enforce anything), and I felt used and taken advantage of and outright stolen from on multiple occasions. After exhausting all options, I had little choice but to stand up for myself, which pissed a few people off. Someone that wasn’t even directly related to the situation lead a campaign to shame me in any way they could, which was partially successful.

Now I am left not knowing who is actually my friend, who I can actually turn to, and who is here just basking in my seeming popularity. These days I can’t but help wonder when someone introduces themselves to me, what will happen with this connection. My mind says “What do they want from me?” and “how much of a user are you?”. I know this is one of the extremes of truly being jaded, and I can’t help but wonder if it is a bad thing, or a good thing that I ask myself that early.

I think I am realizing that I can’t save everyone. That I shouldn’t save everyone. Rather that even if I could, it would be a bad idea. Some people simply are not worth my time and energy, and as precarious of a process as it is to weed the healthy, helpful, selfless from the harmful, leaching, and selfish it is a process I must do.

I have been attempting to set healthy boundaries in my personal/romantic life with The Tenets and The Pledge. Inviting those on a similar path as myself to make a commitment to themselves to hold fast to the commitment they set for themselves. I think this is partially successful at present, but it is still a new process. I have felt used by one person in particular that made The Pledge, but there is little I can do about it. To be continued.

It would appear I will have to move onto plan B earlier then anticipated. I may be hitch hiking across the U.S. very soon, or hunkering down somehow to re-coop. I am not sure at present, but I may keep writing here about my journey.

Notes to self:

> Don’t give people more trust or consideration then they are absolutely due.

> Friendships are a temporary construct. Don’t let it warp major financial decisions for you.

> Have a solid financial base before anything else, and even living within your means is not enough. Use the surplus to build from, and no matter how little it would appear the initial business investment is, think 3x that.

> Never give any one person or group of people too much financial power or control over you. Always have your own base below you that is not based in friendships and/or romantic relationships in any way.

With all this said I am not closer, yet further away from being less dependent on the current monopoly on progress that is the U.S. Dollar.

To be continued…?

I prepared myself mentally for this, but not emotionally.

I knew that standing up for myself and calling a spade a spade would rock the boat. I knew that some people would jump overboard, and I might be left with a ship all to myself. I knew it in my mind, but nothing could have prepared me for the great abyss, chilling fog, and somber feeling after the dust had settled.

My options are so few at present, with no idea where I can turn to for advice or consolement. I know not how a person that has dedicated their life to lessening the suffering of others in this world could feel so neglected and uncared for in this moment. Helping others only seems to encourage the parasites to expect more, being humble and admitting my mistakes only seems to build their rage, and taking a stand and having integrity must only be scaring and confusing the onlookers.

I reached out, but there was no hand to grip. This empty space used to be full of many hands, often reaching for something they might gain from me and my accomplishments and energy. Now there is little for them to gain and I am left with nothing but a bitter taste in my mouth, and these soaking wet clothes.

I don’t see the solution now, but I assure you I will triumph in the end. It will take me much longer then I anticipated, and yes I will force myself to harden and be less giving and be much more selective, but in time I will learn this lesson. I have not navigated it’s complexities yet, these boundaries are not exactly healthy yet, but they are there. They are poorly built right now, but I will take the time to learn how it is done properly. I will learn this lesson.

The viewer is left with a rather mind numbing, boring, and anticlimactic scene. A sole individual, sitting alone on a the boat, with two broken oars. The fog sets in and the individual on the boat eventually disappears in it’s thickness.

“The End”

HELP! NEED A COMPUTER DOCTOR!

I am in need of either a new computer, or an exchange with a computer repair person.

Please let me know about one that works just fine as is. Old and a little out-dated is fine, but I don’t want someone else’s problem. I have been through over 5 computers in the past two years. I like older technology and would rather use what would be thrown away, but it does have to be nearly 100% functional.

I have been having transportation issues, and now my computer died. I need it to make an income as I am self-employed.

Please make me an offer!For Barters here is a list of my skills/offers:

http://www.usedandfedupnomore.wordpress.com/offers-and-wish-list

Details:

Based on my research, I am pretty sure it is “a weak battery and a short in the power port inside the computer”, “loose solder joint in power receptacle”.

The battery has been dead for a while, and over the last couple months the power cord has not been working properly unless I place the cord at awkward angles. I figured it was a matter of time, and that time has come.

Computer Specs:
http://h10025.www1.hp.com/ewfrf/wc/documentSubCategory?tmp_task=useCategory&cc=us&dlc=en&lc=en&os=228&product=3559331

It was a hand-me-down from a while ago, so I am sure the warranty is expired.

(There may be a recall on the battery. Looking into that now. Would still only solve a portion of the problem)

Additional Note:
The screen is broken, as well as the fan. Yes I do use a separate monitor and separate small table fan… Needless to say this is less of a laptop and more of a Frankenstein mess of a computer. In preparing for its demise I was sure to make sure all the files I want to keep I have on external drives. So it won’t be the end of the world if it needs to be wiped or I can get a new computer.

It would appear that something myself, and likely everyone needs is this:
http://www.protectiveplug.com


PLEASE HELP!

WILLING TO BARTER AND WORK FOR REPAIRS OR A (USED) COMPUTER!

(Please no severe problem machines. 5+ dead Frankien-puters is enough for me in a 2 year period)

I am highly qualified in many fields! See my list!